After looking back at some of my old threads/replies, I’ve now realized something.
When I had initially joined MessengerGeek, I had opinions to share and ideas to pass along. With my opinions, I’d be as reasonable and transparent as possible. With my ideas, I tried to push them into reality, with the mindset that nothing would get in the way. When people praised them, I’d be proud that I did the people a favor.
Fast forward, I feel like I’ve wasted my juices and burned out. While I still post here, the experience doesn’t feel the same. No further ideas can be generated with what we have and while I wouldn’t panic about not finding things to share my opinion on, that kind of made up the joy of watching this forum almost on end to read what other people had to say about each thread that was published.
I don’t even know if that old MSN webcam server I had planned to finish is even needed anymore, considering that WLM has webcam support. Who even knows about MSN Messenger’s webcam support. And even though implementing real accounts on the Escargot server IS possible with the right amount of effort, I almost know that a good portion of the dev team will probably rag on me for “doing the impossible,” and neglect the idea as if it were nothing in the first place, even after I’d bring up convincing arguments to the table.
And while the tone of this thread makes it sound like I’m feeling down, it is not that. In all honesty, it’s just boring staring at this forum waiting for something at the very least interesting to come up. Most of the time, it’s either filler, stuff I’m not interested in, or in certain cases, asinine opinions or statements that lead to unnecessary drama. Very rarely, is there anything that could drive those passionate juices of mine back up and pitch in the conversation.
Before you start worrying, I am not bored to the point where I need a break, but I feel very lacking and uninterested in what this forum has to offer. While I still enjoy some remnants of what people share here, I feel that it would take a very big miracle to fully get my spirits back up and make me the person I used to be: a mediator with a very big heart and mind.
I hope you enjoyed reading this thread, as much as I enjoyed typing this up to get my feelings out.